Some of you who follow my posts may have noticed by now that I tend to make a statement and then proceed to go on about things that may or may not appear to have any connection. I thought I’d take a moment to explain my process and even as I type this I realize it’s not possible to elaborate on without writing a book. Well it’s a good thing I’m working on just that! I’ll just say that by the end of each process—which entails quite a bit of navigation and painful emotions—I always find my way to another: “AHA!” moment/answer. What this basically means is that I completed another lesson/healed/evolved. You have to feel if you’re going to heal.
I was just thinking about—and missing—my Mom tonight and running various scenarios in my head of what it might be like if she had been alive to see_____, or what kind of relationship we would have today. As you might imagine, many emotions were triggered.
I have to admit I was a little surprised I didn’t break down, in fact, I got a warm and loving feeling which got me to dig a little further until I found an answer—or came up with a theory. The jury’s still out on this one but I think that because I have a firm grasp on life, why we’re here—and most importantly—what happens when we die, I can see beauty everywhere. I can feel it too!
I remember being a little girl, riding in the car with my Dad and him breaking the news to me that my Nana had cancer and was going to die. I also remember him commenting how life is full of so many questions, that he wished there were a book with the answers and that he hoped that at the very least— when he died— he would learn them. All I could think was how unfair this was and I couldn’t grasp how there could possibly be questions without answers. There HAD to be answers! It was on this day I decided I would not accept this and that if I had a question, I wouldn’t stop until I found answers. The tricky part is that the answers are not always as they appear and it goes a little deeper that simple perception.
My journey leads me to various people and places—allowing me to experience— and the answers are found in the best place of all—my mind.
I’m on a mission and I see the very real possibility that I will assist many on theirs.