Fall is here and I feel it.

Yep, fall is here and I feel...........COLD!! I just want to enjoy the brisk weather, not dread it. I am sick, sick, sick of this. It's too early in the season to suffer. What the *%@# is wrong with me? Not to mention that I've been up since 3:00 AM tossing and turning. Finally decided to get out of bed and am now sipping sleepy time tea and venting my feelings online.

I'm calling my doctors and demanding they find some answers. Whatever controls or regulates my body temperature is BROKEN!! You don't have to be a doctor to know this. I was FREEZING tonight, nothing unusual, wrapped in several layers and looking like a darn mummy watching tv. Fell asleep on the couch to wake up so HOT! Then I have to strip off the layers, put a cold wash cloth behind my neck and lay in front of the fan so that my feet are in front of it because they are burning up. This take another hour or so and by then it's overkill and I'm back to being cold. My body will not register anything until it's too late. So something's broken and I cannot go another winter in &%$#&%$ HELL!
It's gone on wayyyyyyyyy too long and I cannot find the humor in it anymore.

I'm going to have to set a deadline to find some help. If I don't have any answers by then, I am just going to fix myself...what's that called..self medicate? Last year I saw a specialist who did the usual TSH run of the mill bloodwork. Everything was in the normal range. Nothing they can do to help so it must be all in my head. Well I am hear today after 7 (seven) years still complaining of the same thing. Blame in on chemo or whatever else to think of I don't care anymore just fix ME!!!!!!!!!!

**Sigh**- Well I feel a little better now that I've vented. I've just finished the last of my sleepy time tea and am now going to my couch where I will watch tv until I drift back to sleep hopefully. It's that or I bring out the vacuum and wake everybody up. Maybe I should hit the gym!

Love and light,

Wendy