I Am One Of Many

As I was watching American Idol last night, it dawned on me that while I understand the process-being all the details and organization that goes into creating each episode-leading up to the finale, I finally had the missing epiphany I was waiting for, the one that is going to push me over the top in making my dreams a reality.

If you watch the show, you know that the contestants with gifted voices all have different reasons for competing. Some of them have an amazing voice and are looking to use it to become a pop star, obtain fame and fortune and live a life of luxury. They entertain. If I were a judge, my answer to these people would be no. It would be no, because, despite the fact they have an amazing voice, a gift, in my opinion they are not ready. It would be no because they don’t yet understand that the gift they have been given is being used for the wrong reason.

It’s the gifted voices in those contestants that have that special something that seems to eminate through them that-- they are there because they want this more than anything in the world-- that I would send to the next phase. Because they understand their gift of music and how it not only affects their lives, but also the impact it has on the listener. These contestants feel it and want to share the feeling. It is because they were inspired and want to share it by inspiring others.

It’s not all about catching a break and hoping to be discovered for them, it’s about knowing that they have discovered their gift to contribute to our world — their purpose in life— and having the courage to face their biggest fear of a possibility of not being validated.

The judges have the extremely difficult job of weeding out those who have the talent, but are not yet ready. Once that is done, the show moves on to the next phase. Each phase contains defining moments for those who get to move on to the next phase and for those who don’t.

To make it to the final phase— whether they win the contest or not— ensures validation and they will go on to fulfill their purpose and create a legacy. Those who don’t make it have a choice to make because they are now being tested. For them it’s simply a test of faith. If in their heart-of-hearts they know they are here for this reason and now become filled with doubt, a decision must be made on whether to give up and throw in the towel, or do whatever it takes to persevere. To perservere reqires faith in knowing, and ability to brush themselves off and never give up what they know in their hearts is destined.

As long as the judges have the gift to recognize all of this, they can rest easy that once they weed out and narrow it down, what’s left are the ones who are ready and truly belong there at this time.

Each one of us has a purpose. Each one of us is supposed climb a mountain in search of our own unique purpose. We are supposed to learn what gift we have been given and how to use it. It’s hard work compromising of trial and error, making the mistakes and learning from them, moving on to the next phase by recognizing the defining moments along the way, recognizing when we have veered off path, and knowing the ways to navigate back on track.

Once we find our purpose and truly believe in it, despite the fact that we have no one to validate this for us—we have climbed that giant mountain— to the point where we begin to imagine to possibilities on the other side. We are at that point where we are filled with the deepest feelings and can actually envision what’s on other side in such detail that we can almost taste it. We become filled with the most awesome excitement and scariest anticipation of knowing that if we take another step, we will now be able see over the mountain. The moment which has a possibility for the validation we have been waiting for our whole loves. Our biggest test where we must dare to face our biggest fear and it requires a conviction that comes from a place inside of us that we never knew existed. This is the moment we discover if we are ready. This is biggest leap of faith we will ever take and it’s so very scary. The only thing needed now is the courage to face our moment of truth.

I am about to take the final step to my moment of truth and I cherish every single experience I had along the way. Every single one of them! If you know me and are wondering how I could even possibly say that, I promise you that it’s okay and I say this with the utmost sincerity and respect: you are not ready yet. And I take no offense If you don’t understand because that is my purpose in life—to help you understand— and to assist any of you, with your navigation, to your moment of truth that awaits.

There are many who share my purpose to assist and we each have our own unique gifts and methods we use to accomplish this. We all share a common goal—to be of service—and I urge any who desire assistance in their navigation, to accept help from any one of us. It comforts me to know there are many to choose from.

With all my love and light,
Wendy